Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Not the most conscientious

"Conscientious student." This was one of the recurrant themes on my report cards when I was growing up. (Ellen, Bill and I found old report cards and read them when I was in Cleveland.) I was a smart kid, but I think what the teachers really appreciated was that I worked hard and well.

I am not the most conscientious student in TKD, though, and I think I'm OK with that.

Aimee and Heidi say they practice ALL the forms every day. They know those Palgwe when they are asked to do them. I have to stop and think and watch someone else out of the corner of my eye. I have thought about practicing my forms every day . . . but I haven't done it. I've decided this is OK. Patrick learns his next form even before passing his test. I don't do this. I don't even look at the next one until I've finished my test.

As a former "conscientious student," I find this a bit hard to do, to not work my absolute hardest and best on something I love. (And I do love TKD.) In TKD, I've decided that I'm going to be "good enough" and for now that's good enough. Perhaps my mind will change. Until then, I'm just going to love doing it and not worry about being the best in the class.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Not "conscientious"???
Sorry, TKD Mom, but I have to disagree! :)
You're courageous -- beginning your study of martial arts after 40.
You're dedicated -- sticking with it even though your kids decided to take a break.
You're curious -- you read books about TKD and participate in on-line forums.
You're enthusiastic -- you put on private demos for your family and want to hold a demo for the college.
[These kind of sound like your own personal TKD tenets, eh?]
"Conscientious" does not mean perfect - there is no perfect in martial arts because there is always another level of improvement to strive for. The simple fact that you wrote this post and acknowledged your weak areas makes you a conscientious martial artist. Keep enjoying it!
Kicker Chick